I really love it...

When every plan I made about my wedding day is completely disregarded. I absolutely despise that Kirk's family is this little wierd Mormon unit. That is the only thing I despise about his family though because they are ridiculously nice and it is next to impossible to hate them. Absolutely NOTHING can be an intimate affair when it comes to his family. It almost makes me ill. I like things low-key, I like to consume booze on special occasions such as weddings, barbeques, funerals and other fun activities like that. I am marrying a 34 year old man who still hides our beer when his family comes to vist. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? I dont know how to deal with this, at first it didnt bother me that his family belongs to a religious cult but, now it starting to dawn on me that his family is always going to be in the middle of our shit all the time. I absolutely will not tolerate this as I am a very private person and do not like my problems broadcast to an entire army. I have a feeling there are going to be problems already. I dont know what to do. I can feel my feet starting to get cold.

That poor little dog.

This is his green puppy. Apparently it is delicious.

Since I last posted....

• I weathered nine months of pregnancy sucessfully. I gave birth to my son Christian Lawrence Miller on October 12th, 2007. He is beautiful, wonderful and amazing.
• Became happily engaged to Kirk. We are getting married on Feb. 2nd, 2008. I will post pictures
• Survived the holidays in both Oregon and Washington with only minor mental breakdowns.
• Had a lovely Christmas with my new family.
• Recovered from a C-section.
• Made nearly homemade brith announcements.
• Started new relationships with long lost family members.

All in all, its been a crazy four months. I wouldnt trade it for anything though. I feel very blessed to have so much support all around me. I couldnt have done any of this without my friends and family.